As the clock shows, it’s 22:31 now. 1 Syawal 1438H. 25 June 2017 Masihi.
Just finished every daily routine that should be done and here i am. Writing.
It’s Raya! Oh gosh why am I having this lapsed joy of festive hype 🤣
I mean, well, i was caught up with something for the past 2 months. Was quite out of the world mentally momentarily. And just few days back i think i might have regain whatever human feeling that i should be feeling. You get me? But then, there’s only like 3-4 days to Raya. I am like, what Ramadhan end so soon? 🤣🤣🤣
So, undoubtly I came a little bit unprepared for Raya this year 😂 No new baju Raya. None full tick of my pre-checklist for Raya. No cookies no cake no nothing. Come Syawal and here i am stepping my first foot into the celebration that all Muslims waited for. That i didnt prepared on so many levels tbh. Mentally. Physically. Oh. This is so not me. It’s like, I open a door and there i stand with a big jawdrop feasting my eyes on a panaromic scene i have never seen before. Okay, that’s a bit exaggerating.
Being a person who’s always with a plan (even a short plan at least!) it came down to me that I really gotta sort out the closet early next year insyaAllah!
I got piling kain to send to the tailors (which i haven’t know where to send actually!), plenty plans for Raya preparation that ended up switching with other plans and i am so so bad at finishing things up once i started it. It’s like when i have 10 items to do i will have 8 or 9 things done but the 10th will take forever to finish. Sigh.
It’s a year from now and Syawal is only a once in a year occasion!
Wow. And i came zero this year.
Goodness. My Ramadhan passed me by relentlessly. And my Syawal, well lets hope better days are coming since i am sobering up from that ‘mental illness’ of mine.
It’s my 3rd Raya with lè Husband, as i mentioned. I thought experience would at least remind me of what to do or what not to do. But as human as i am; i forgot that i sometimes am forgetful no matter how many checklist is there before my eyes.
Which is why i think my Ramadhan and Syawal has been quite funny somehow. Seriously odd and weird and funny somehow somewhere.
And for Allah sake i am turning into 3 series next year. Hopefully i’ll take all of these memories as sweet reminders of all the things that will appear in my life in the near future, with Allah’s willing of course.
Because it feels that after a while; i am happy. Truly blessed. And happy. Despite everything that has happened in the past few years, months, days.
I. Am. Happy. Trully blessed. Thank you Allah. Thank you. Of all the things you’ve shown me that I sometimes grew bitter of life; you show me again and again that Your plans are the best of all.
And i said this humbly from the bottom of my heart.
Lets continue making more memories for this Raya!😗
22:55 25 June 2017